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Do you ever wonder how people become so devious? Are they born that way? Do they develop the skill later after serious trauma? Were they bullied? I have never been the devious type. My mind is an open book and I expect everyone to be honest. It still comes as a shock after 38 years on this planet when I encounter devious behavior. I was raised direct and honest. My parents abhorred the thought of leading anyone in any direction that was less than forthcoming. I have learned that most people do not appreciate direct or honest feedback but I still come away wondering why. Is life really the cut-throat competition that requires blood to be the victor? Are we less because we live without gile? What is really gained by deception and manipulation? I just find myself perplexed at the behavior wondering what is achieved as there must be something worth the devaluing of ones' soul. It just makes me ponder and then ponder more because the answer is still eluding me after 38 years.

A day in the life...: Where do we go?

A day in the life...: Where do we go?: Today is a day off for me and my children. I love that there are days off especially now that my mind is unsettled and I need a different fo...

Where do we go?

Today is a day off for me and my children. I love that there are days off especially now that my mind is unsettled and I need a different focus from the goings on in the political forum. I fight between the feeling of forboding and positivity. Is there a way to be informed and stay positive? That is my quandry. I look at the present occurances and the forces that are not in the interest of the population and my blood curdles. Then I think, "Where is my positive outlook?" Some of my discussions begin with warnings or dissemination of information in the hopes that people in my social circle will become better informed or give me solutions to my concerns. It hasn't been comforting so far and my fear is mounting as it seems the writing is on the wall. My dear friend and I were discussing the fact that our children will not know the world that we knew. It is true of every generation that things progress or radically change but usually in relation to technology or fashion. Our conversation centered around the liberties that are changing and the tide swinging to a social call for babysitting. This is the generation expecting to be cared for and coddled. This group does not want the indepence of action and thought that will allow them the future of their choosing. They are screaming for our government to rule their lives in virtually every aspect without exception. I know it is a precarious position to look into a future that is unrealized and have the impact of knowing what you choose will bring good or bad but there isn't a set course. Things can be remedied if in fact they run amuck. Mistakes teach lessons and the end result is a person refined. My life has had little coaching and my choices have led me in varying directions but they were mine and I have deeply benefited. The individual I am is a direct result of both the good and the bad. Actually the more refined side is due largely to the bad. When you hurt or dissappointment is your companion you can't wait to severe that tie and never return. It is highly beneficial and promotes growth. I fear the leachery that will ensue from nursing off the government will only serve to produce fully grown infants wailing at the drop of a hat when their needs are not immediately granted and shocked that they must wait. That is only one of the ailments I fear we will see. The mere treatment of one another will shortly become an every man for himself, leave the others behind. When you treat people as infants they behave with the same self indulged egocentrism that is indicative of an individual who does not do for him/herself. You can't know patience if you have never had to wait. You can't know selflessness if there isn't a sacrifice required. This will be a 50/50 situation for awhile as half the population will be required to coddle the other half. When that group becomes disenchated then we will see an all out collapse of our society. The scary part is we are not accustomed to this kind of living. America has always been the land of opportunity for those who would forge their own way. That kind of individualism will be hard lost and difficult to reverse to a titty sucking government laden lifestyle. There will be huge ramifications that will ultimately lead to a contentious, broken society that no longer has the power to protect itself from those laying in wait, and believe me they have been biting at the bit for our interior to collapse thus allowing for the weak link they need to devour us. I can only pray that the like minded will band together and prevent such backward thinking to prevail as the state of our survival depends on it.